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Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Tattoo Tuesday - Anthony Kiedis

It's my first Tattoo Tuesday so I thought it would be fitting to start with a man I've loved for a whole lot of years and seen in concert a whole lot of times - the stunning, un-aging, Anthony Kiedis from The Red Hot Chili Peppers. (I have a cat named Chili - now you know why)

<--That right there is my first tat and if you don't know what it is it's the RHCP logo - an asterisk that Anthony drew on a piece of paper once with the band's name around in and Bazinga RHCP's logo was born. Anthony has also been known to call it an angel's asshole. Lol.

Anthony Kiedis - born November 1, 1962 (50 years old this year)

His first tattoo was Chief Sitting Bull on his upper right arm. 

Followed by Chief Joseph on his left upper arm

Happy birthday, baby girl. :)

Twenty-five years ago today, I held my baby girl in my arms for the first time, and yes, I was a mere child myself when I had her *snorts*. Jenna-lee was unexpected but all loved, and she blessed me with being the mom that I'd always wanted to be. Yeah, I was one of those teenagers that, despite all the partying and having fun, knew that one day she would have a little girl of her own (along with 2 boys after - and that's totally the way it happened).

My husband and I were young, inexperienced in the ways of a screaming newborn baby. There was a lot of worrying whether we were doing the adequate things; changing her correctly, feeding her enough, bathing her the right way. She was generally a happy baby, but unfortunately Miss Jenna had colic for a while and the thing she loved most was being bundled up into her car bucket and taken for drives in my 1974 Firebird. Then-to-be-husband had a rusted-out, falling apart Gremlin so that was definitely not an option for either Jenna or me. Lol.

Jenna was the first grandchild on both sides so to say she was almost over-loved, is an understatement. She had more nicknames than any little girl I've ever known, many that have stuck over the years and still make her brothers go WTF is up with that one, example Punky-face and Nanoo. The girl has more pictures than any other child I know as well, albums and albums of just-Jenna stacked in my basement while my boys have a few boxes (Jake - the baby - even fewer than Jesse).

She's always made me proud, even through her teenage years, despite a few bumps in the road here and there, and we never did have to send her to that Private Girls' School in the middle of where-the-fuck-are-we Saskatchewan so that's a plus. :) She was a good big sister even once her year-apart brothers started getting into her stuff and sucking up some of her attention. She kicked ass in high school, making us proud with drama productions and always doing just what she wanted to do. She chose to go to a university half-way across the country and as hard as that was, it made us proud to see her independence and determination. Her last endeavour was to become a Yoga teacher, traveling to Montreal for intensive training, and I can happily say she has achieved that status and is more than likely, awesome at her new job. She blossomed into a beautiful, independent, assertive, lovely human being in front of my eyes and she is truly one of the most important things in my life.

In some ways because of my mental illnesses, seeing my kids grow and thrive and become good people has made me realize I did an okay with them despite all the issues I had when they were growing up. I can look at them and say I did a good job, I had a hand in the way they grew up and the people they are now. I don't think anything makes me prouder than that.

So happy birthday, Jenna-lee, I miss you and wish I could be with you on this special day but you'll be with me in my heart every single moment.


Saturday, January 28, 2012

Just Kiss Me

I'm totally supposed to be doing research - shifters, werewolves, gypsies, lore, spirit guides, but instead I've been looking at pretty pictures of men kissing. I blame Kari Gregg who posted something about beautiful kisses on Twitter this morning. Yep - give her a poke when you see her because it's all her fault.

Not all of these are kisses, some are just special moments that struck me as intimate (whether stages or not is not my concern for this post). So enjoy. (PS I always set out to only post a couple pics then my OCD takes over and BAM, huge post again - *hangs head*)

We'll start with a wedding - porn star Brent Everett and Steve Pena's to be more exact

Friday, January 27, 2012

Half-full or Half-empty?

Half-empty? Half-full?

Everyone has a different opinion or perspective on this age old question of negativity vs positivity. I'll be the first to admit that I'm the Half-Empty type but over the past few years with all the struggles I've gone through and the thinking - forced and otherwise - I've done, I'm trying harder to let my mind swing a little when it comes to viewing this glass.

Maybe it's my disorder or my depression or just simply who I am but the positives of situations don't come nearly as easy for me as the negatives. I'm emotional all the time and on those bad days when everything I see, touch, hear makes me cry, (like today) I curse those emotions and wish I could just box them up and send them away, and in some ways I have. 

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Wednesday inspiration

The shock and awwww twins are completely stupefied over the fact that I actually updated part of my website - only one page but updated nonetheless.

I managed to add some new books to my Books page and after several (meaning lots) of formatting issues, I now have all my upcoming releases listed. Next up will be updating my WIPs and maybe doing some actual updates posts on there. But whoa - can't get ahead of myself.

So if you wanna see the (whispers - two hour) update I did, click the pretty down there. :)

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

What slash means to me - NC17 rated

A few of my online buddies are doing posts about slash fanfiction slash so I thought I'd throw my hat in the ring. If you don't know what slash or fanfiction is, here's an easy definition:

Fanfiction is stories written by fans of characters and settings based on original books, television shows or movies. Slash fiction is the genre of fan fiction dealing with same-sex relationships or sexual encounters. 

There is a lot of discrepancy on the issue of fanfiction amongst writers and readers in the m/m genre. My opinion is nothing but positive. I'm someone who has always written but it wasn't until I started reading then writing my own fanfiction and more specifically, slash, that I gained the confidence to put my writing out there for others to read and scrutinize. I remember posting that first story was just as unnerving as subbing my first story for publication.

Alexander the Great was my first fanfiction genre, more specifically Alexander and Hephaistion and more, more specifically the characters from the movie portrayed by Colin Farrell and Jared Leto. If you've seen the movie or know the history, they were a totally slashy, loving couple.

I wrote more than 25 stories and series in the Alexander/Hephaistion fandom on LiveJournal and they remain my one true pairing. If anyone would like to read them, I'm more than proud of showing them off, even the really bad earlier ones. :)

 From Hephaistion I gravitated to other Jared Leto slash which is called Real Person Slash and it's not appreciated or accepted by a whole lot of people, even in the fanfiction community. I'm sure just by saying I've written it will piss off some people but hey, I wrote it and enjoyed it. RPS is slash based on real people, generally actors, bands, that sort of thing. I wrote Jared Leto/30 Seconds to Mars slash (a lot of it) and anyone who knows me, can attest to that fact that I was severely addicted to the band for quite some time. I *ahem* saw them 15 times in 2010. Lol. Yeah, I go all the way in my obsessions. I also wrote Jared Leto/Colin Farrell slash and had a very cool series going on that followed them from starring in the movie together to modern day. I even wrote slash that had Alexander, Hephaistion, Jared and Colin, or just Jared and Hephaistion. I'll admit that was a blast to write. 

I slashed a few of Jared's other movies as well and the story I'm going to post is based on the movie Lord of War with Jared and Nicholas Cage. Unfortunately, it's a brother scene so there is slashcest - if that makes you uncomfortable even in a fictional way, do not continue. It's also very graphic and more than a little sexy. Scene set-up: Vitaly (Jared) is entering rehab for the umpteenth time and his older brother Yuri (Nicholas Cage) is accompanying him.

Friday, January 20, 2012

K-lee's update and pimpage post

January and February are two of the toughest months of the year for me. My depression seems to enjoy coming out to play during this time and last year these two fabulous months led to a few months in hospital. 

Skip to this year - I'm nowhere near how I was as one year ago & I have some good things happening and going on. I just need to lie a little low, find some patience for myself and ask for and allow some extra support from my friends. I guess I'm needy right now, a state I do not enjoy being in. So if you'll all bear with me, I'd appreciate it. 
End of update on the ickiness - on to the goodness.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Update - not feeling well OR welcome to my Ricky world

I've been wanting to update my blog for almost a week but whether it's a migraine or the flu dogging my ass - I'm not sure which - I just haven't been able to do it.

I have a few new things going on so I'm hoping to update soon but for now I'm barely getting the writing done for a deadline so I'll just leave some pretty pics of one of my fave hottie men and promise to get back on here soon. I think my brain can handle this. <3
EDIT: I don't think you have to ask why I call it my Ricky Obsession now. Lol.


Sunday, January 1, 2012

Happy Belated New Year & some goals for K-lee

Ack! Late as usual but I hope you all had a rockin' New Year's Eve. I went to a games night but had to come home at 10:30 due to a migraine so my Eve was not so much rockin' as reelin'.

I meant to do this post before the new year so I could do some resolutions or more accurately some goal-planning for 2012. First I'll get some other business out of the way.

I'm thrilled to say that I've had a few good reviews for Finally Home and even though I'm trying really hard to not let any of the reviews affect me in a good or bad way, it's still always nice to see. It's available at MLR Press, All Romance Ebooks, and Amazon now, and I might be planning a Valentine's story as a sequel. *whispers - shhhh*

As for my other Works in Progress: