Stuck in the grey & giveaway winners

On the heels of a couple almost-normal days where faking it inline was mildly possible, the last few have been covered in a thick layer of grey. It's not even a translucent shadow where I can at least tumble a few words onto a page that are homelessly, hopelessly, frustratingly rattling around my brain. It's thick and bold and has but one purpose, to suck the life out of me, and unfortunately its succeeding.

Random #6 - Anxiety

Today's random subject is anxiety, mainly because I'm anxious as hell right now. I have panic attacks and generalized anxiety disorder which unfortunately means that most times I have no idea why I feel like I'm going to crawl out of my skin.

Nothing is different about my day today yet my heart is pounding hard enough for me to feel it in my ears. My body feels twitchy on the inside more than the outside. I'm a little disoriented and shaky. To put it bluntly, I'm having a bad day.

New Release & Giveaway - In The Moment

I have a new release out today and I've been very slack about promoting it mostly due to the January funk I'm in. Regardless of that, I'm proud of my little story so here's some info. 

It's a short/novella (12,000 words) based on the theme of Kiss Me at Midnight. I'm not really sure what that meant to anyone else but to me it meant starting fresh and the beginning of a new year. 

In The Moment is about two mildly opposite but completely in love men named Joey and Giles. They've been through some major trials and turmoils over the past year and all they want is a little good news for a change. The story revolves completely around the title as Joey and Giles struggle to clear their minds of the past and the future and remain in the moment. They find a special way to assure each other that not matter what the future brings, they'll always be facing it together.

I like both Joey and Giles for different reasons, and for one main one - they're very committed to their commitment. I hope you like them too. I'm offering up an ebook copy to one commenter so leave your name and email address. Contest will be open from January 23-27 then I'll have my random generator, Bob, select a winner.

I'll leave you with the synopsis, a short excerpt and a buying link for In The Moment. Thanks for dropping by. :)

Random #5 - January sucks

I have no words - only pictures.

Random stuff 4 - The Outsiders ("stay gold")

"According to Ponyboy, there are two kinds of people in the world: greasers and socs. A soc (short for "social") has money, can get away with just about anything, and has an attitude longer than a limousine. A greaser, on the other hand, always lives on the outside and needs to watch his back. Ponyboy is a greaser, and he's always been proud of it, even willing to rumble against a gang of socs for the sake of his fellow greasers--until one terrible night when his friend Johnny kills a soc. The murder gets under Ponyboy's skin, causing his bifurcated world to crumble and teaching him that pain feels the same whether a soc or a greaser."

Ponyboy Curtis.
Sodapop Curtis.
Darry Curtis.
Dally Winston.
Johnny Cade.

Random stuff 3 - obsession

Yesterday's randomness was serious - today's not so much. I do have a tendency to obsess over things so this post definitely fits. I have OCD but its mild. I'm not someone who has to turn off the lights three times before leaving a room or check the stove all the time or someone who thinks they've left their flat-iron on every time they leave the house - okay, that's a lie, I do do that. I guess my point, if there is one, is that though my mind does go into obsessed mode more often than not, I don't view obsession as necessarily being a bad thing unless its actually harmful.

Random stuff 2 - depression

Depression is a wide-spread mental health issue that can affect anyone with no regard to gender, sexuality, age, marital status, social standing or whatever else. It can produce physical problems as well as emotional. Oftentimes it is disregarded as easily fixable or not really there because unless a person has experienced it, it can be extremely hard to understand. Lack of understanding can then lead to fear of the unknown which in turn leads to apathy and impatience for those who suffer from it.

Peek-a-boo 2013 - I'm still here so please poke me

Happy 2013. I know I'm a little late but real life can be a bitch sometimes. At the moment I have a hairline crack on my wrist which is also sprained. It's not casted, just wrapped and hurts like a bitch. And of course it's my right wrist (my crutch hand) and I'm completely left-hand-challenged so I feel like a flaily newborn kitten being especially flaily. I'm typing this on my iPad with the Blogger app so hopefully it will even work.